i am SO happy.... i had a miserable day, and long miserable night, too, so i don't know why....
well, no, i do know why.
first, let me start by saying i've been awake now for a grand total of 56 hours. this project..... all I'm doing is yes men, was at kinko's bright and early this morning, bumped into mike, yapped for awhile.... got to yes men after some tension yesterday regarding some of my new spreads.... changed A LOT without getting permission, and management wasn't too happy -- not because the spreads didn't look awesome, but because the yes men hadn't seen it yet and we're in the 11th hour, like big time. so i stayed up all last night, after working on this since monday night, and revamped the spreads....
well, as of 9:30 this morning, it STILL didn't work because they were STILL too different. And i finished redoing it AGAIN, jean and matt were BOTH going at me.... everyone is SO stressed... i was just like whatever, i'll fix it, and i'll have it done.... they didn't believe me, and it was done by 5 (BEFORE everyone else....!), and they love it....
i rock. :P
but seriously, i don't think i could have gotten through today without olya and button. first, button and i have been having this sorta unofficial fashion contest -- seeing who could dress the most out there on any given day. yesterday i was rocking the new bangs (I got a thumbs up from the crew -- said i looked like a 60's model!), had on skin tight grey jeans and this wacky tank top from the 80's, with my cord blazer and spike black heels, nutty earrings.... but ended up missing button in class (who i heard looked HOT) because i had to bail early to work on yes men. anyway, i saw him after his final today, and he had on a weird like 50's thing with suspenders and the grubby wife beater underneath with his weird button down shirt.... shoes that had NO business being with that outfit... and me, so stressed out and SO tired, was wearing my sweats and flip flops. Farm boy says right in front of him: "Jules, you look tired..." I said: thanks for noticing (jerk). SO, kinda embarrassed for looking like SUCH crap (OH AND I DID! no make-up, hair ALL over the place (haven't gotten the hang of ponytail with bangs yet, lol. grubby SPD shirt i found in the basement last night, lol) i decided to skip gab time and go back inside the building....
jean and matt laid into me, BADLY. i mean, BADLY. I'm SO frustrated and tired from all of this i'm MAJORLY flushed and really close to just crying.... olya actually got me tissues it came so close. button had left, at this point, his final was over; but came back because he FORGOT HIS LAPTOP, and somehow it wound up in our room. He was sorta listening to what was going on, took off his over-shirt (leaving just the grubby white shirt) and said: "today you win". i wanted to fucking kiss him SO bad.... it was SO awesome of him. you have no idea how that stupid little thing made my entire day....
anyway, jean and matt got lost to discuss "what they were going to do with me", and button, olya and i started talking about the band (apparently bri has a band, too which i didn't know -- they're going to be at northern lights like ALL this summer. i don't think i can look at him the same way anymore after the nude self-portrait, lol.... god, i HOPE he was being generous....) anyway, button's saying that they've been having problems with the drummer. i wanted to mention Jon before, but i didn't know if he was going to fit with them -- they're a pretty odd mix of rock and punk.... so today he was saying how all these drummers they get have major attitudes, and they won't do what they're supposed to, spontaneously break into 10 minute solos.... so button specifically ASKED me if i knew any drummers, and i said yeah, but i don't know if he'll fit your style. it seems that they want someone just low key, no ego, who just wants to jam. and actually, i think Jon would be good for that. so....
he finally got my number, lol. and i got his. after today, he deserved it :)
i emailed Jon and he's for it, as long as button has a kit (he's got three cars, a drum set isn't totally out of the question). jon said he may try to buy one off of bob for 200 bucks.... i told him even if he wasn't serious about it, it would be cathartic to get out and jam, possibly get hooked up with some other people who were doing more of what he was looking for.... i'm sure he's been a bit out of it since leaving crookshank.
anyway, after button left olya was practically doing cartwheels. i was laughing because not only did i look like UTTER shit, but my face was all puffy from being angry, lmao! olya said it made me look "dewy". god, he is such an awesome guy.... so fucking awesome!!! its like he didnt even SEE how crappy i looked today, he just wanted to be nice and cheer me up.... you know, he would have beat me out for yes men too, if he had cared more about it. i REALLY pushed... i know button was like: whatever. if i get it, i get it. if not, whatever. (honestly, he'd do good no matter what he took on)
anyway, now that we've finally exchanged vitals, olya has STOPPED calling him my "boyfreind" and started calling him my twin. why is beyond me because we look absolutly nothing alike. i think it has to do with our fashion sense, lol, but still.... he's got chin length bleached hair (it was brown for about two days this sememster) AMAZING blue green eyes (kinda lidless or something, so they look all sultry and bedroom like), taller than me, big shoulders, little waist.... and his car. have i mentioned his car? olya was telling him again today how much she likes it, and stressing how much *I* like it cause it looks like the batmobile. he got all shy and looked down, and i told olya: look, you made him blush. he goes: aw, shucks, and pretends like hes kicking a rock.... any guy that can make MY stupid ass jokes laughable just fucking rocks :)
my stupid hand was actually shaking when i wrote down my number (partially cause i was still flustered from the critique, but mostly cause of him being so friggin close...)
well, we'll see what happens. i SOOOOOOO don't want to rush anything, but how many times have i said that before....?
just gotta stick to it this time. and with button, there's incentive ... we have all our classes together next semester, so its better for us to keep things cool....
god, he was so awesome today. if he hadnt come in when he did, i wonder if i would have finished those spreads so quickly....?