well, she's a re-opened. yes, some of the posts are missing (to those of you who could get through), but some of that stuff was a little to private for public consumption. i'm sorry that this whole password thing hasnt worked. and i'm really, REALLY against changing my handle.
so here we are again.
whats been going on recently? well, besides the huge fallout with john (which is hopefully over)...
grandma's been sick, but the docs think its psychosomatic, because they cant find anything pysically wrong. i think she's just hates being alone, and is getting ready to die...and nough said about that. she's been happy these past few days, and hopefully, with a little prodding, will stay that way.
i think i may have found a drummer for mike's band, lol...yeah. ME. we were sitting outside class last friday, and there was this drum group on the lawn from parsons...they sucked, but they were having SO much fun.... olya and i went over and inspected thier instruments, and i was just beaming at this one kid who kept flipping with his bongo.... anyway, we were joking with mike that he should recruit one of them, and mike said: julie, why dont you just do it? and i thought: yeah, why not?
so i've been practiving (HA! if you can call it that). i ordered a really chintzy kit, and a drum machine, and some books and dvds, and i'm gonna just go for it. eventually, maybe i'll even get some lessons....
the great thing about it is that its very physical -- i love it for the same reasons i love printmaking, and bookmaking, and painting -- you have the ability to just put your WHOLE SELF into it.... and since i'm now a double major in painting and graphic design, painting has ceased to be "fun", or for leasure -- its part of a requirment now, which makes it not so good of a stress relief....drumming, on the other hand...that fits the fucking bill. i completely love it! the sound, the action....
so anyway, i talked to mike and he said that once i get a handle on what i'm doing, i should come try out. and i am SO totally for that. even if i dont make it into thier group permantly (which is a total long shot anyway), it would be cool to actually practice with real musicians, in the hopes of one day maybe playing out....
and so, with that, i'm fullfilling my dreams of becoming a rock star, as well as finding a major stress outlet. who needs american idol?
so, i called my bro this afternoon, and he was drunk with tessa and dana and kevin at yankee stadium. so kevin gets on the phone, and tells me that he wants to hang out. HAHAHAHAHA! well, he's obviosuly desperate. thats the only time i get talked to (in all fairness, its the only time i talk to him, either). but thats the great thing about those kind of relationships. the "i dont owe nobody nuthin" type of relationships. yeah, we're cool: we have sex, and thats that. and granted, as much as i do really want to get laid, i dont want to do it badly enough to jump back into the whole casual thing. i'm just very much over that. i'm not sure why or how, but it just seems so unimportnat now, in luie of other things.... and i could keep going there, but i wont. i am freakin sore from the gym (yes, i've dropped a few pounds and totally firmed up! gotta get those pipes back into shape....pilates, best fitness, and all kinds of running excercises....)
so i'll post again tomorrow. theres lots more i want to say, but have to have a cigarette before i loose my runners high (oh yeah, i started smoking again too)