The footloose kick has morphed into a beegees kick. DAMN WEIRD.
mike is so totally fucking adorable. i dont think i've seen him once with his hair brushed. the messier it gets, the more i like it... like want to touch it. its crazy.
he seemed really desperate today for a drummer, to the point i felt kinda bad for him....i honestly wish there was more i could do to help. i just dont know anyone else.... maybe i'll ask derrick? i'm such a bonehead, i just saw him this morning, too....
i felt today like i might have wanted to make a move or something, then chickened out. maybe it was the hair.... we talked outside for like 45 minutes. i think maybe he thinks i'm crazy. lol, guess he would be right.... hes just so fucking amazingly hot.... i dont get why hes so shy, or seems like that.... its hard to know what to do. theres sometimes where i feel close enough or silly enough to just poke him in the side or something (i'm always teasing him) or touch the hair, (which would prolly be overdoing it, lol) but.... i dunno. again, just not ready for it....and damn, hes only 22 (just turned 22 in november!!!).... he seems so much fucking older.... eh!! today was tough. i guess i wanted to.... i dunno. not like... lol, i dunno. i like him. he's gourgeous, in a lot of ways. the fucking eyes... and i'm an old woman compared! a whopping 20 - something or other....
oh, btw, we had the flash group today, and then mike, olya and i met with the lead singer for the refrigerators; lol, we're designing thier cd for this charity event in june for a childrens organization.... got tickets to the VIP party and everything! hotness! the dude dave was totally cool, too.... i liked the cut of his jib. we've only got till wed, however.... lol, finishing up at JUMPING JACKS monday night. the up of being a graphic designer with a laptop.... also, mike knows a guy in baltimore that does the resin masks like we need for cathulu.... again, we'll see what happens.
no more boys, dammit!! today was such an awesome day, for alot more reasons. mostly cause at the end of it, i went to my g-ma's and played in the fucking veggie garden, then found a toad and kissed it (nothing happened). lol, i'd still do it again. then me and mac spent like 30 minutes feeding this mouse the size of a horse.... there's a family of them living in the old brick stove in the backyard, and he kept peeking his little head out.... but we're going to give him a heart attack! fed him bacon, cheese and raw meatballs.... lol, atkins isnt working for him!
and tomorrow we're off for boston and the fucking DARKNESS, SON! i cant WAIT....