just mad fucking hate and anger, yo....
hoping a comedy will take the edge off.
that, or a return to prozac is desperatly in order.
eh, fuck that. being angry and hating isn't necessarily BAD.... besides, i'm brushing up on my "faking" skills. i never realized i could be such a good liar.
AMEND1: I'm having like a really off day or something. Maybe it has to do with that shot...?
harold told me again, today, that i was brilliant. and christ, its not that i dont like to hear it.... it just makes me feel like a tool because i'm not doing more with it. i guess i dont see it as brilliant, yet. theres still a lot more ground to cover..... and its agrrivating, because i want to be there NOW. im sick of farting around getting distracted....
then i remembered that the stuff for adobe has to be in by either the 15th or the 17th!!! there is NO way i can not enter that.... looks like i'm clearing the rest of my week (no practice :( -- maybe i'll luck out and they'll push it back to this weekend....and maybe i'll actually be DONE by then....), except for yes men, which THEORETICALLY SHOULD BE totally finished by friday....
thats okay, cause olya and i are hitting the city on the 27th, and then boston with the boys on the 30th.... god, i need a vacation so bad.