first: i spoke to jeff, and he made me realize something really important about what's going on with dave: or judith made him realize it. as much as i've sympathized with dave through this whole thing, as much as i belive it will eventually blow over, as much as i want him to get help, and as much as i dont want to be involved....dave's still a friend, and despite it all, i'll be there for him when its over. i haven't said it, or thought it, and i'm kinda disappointed with myself for that... i was so worried about MYSELF, and keeping myself out of it (maybe even relieved for once the drama was revolving around someone else for a change), that i totally didnt consider what my acutal role in this was, not as "group julie", but just as julie....
right now, i still feel like its something dave has to get through, or figure out, for himself, FOR NOW -- there's very little i think "the group" can do for him. us, as individuals, void of all the emotional crap that comes along with our parts in "the group", can most likely help, just by letting him know we'll be there when the time comes, or the dust has settled...whatever....
i'll give him a call in a couple of days. this stuff with jeff, shawn, reis and michelle is just a little too fresh, and i want to take some more time to think about it .
on a different note, to any of "the group" who might have read the "dave" post, and found yourself offended.... consider what i've said in here about a thousand times before: i see the group as an entity OTHER than the people in it...a gossip and drama hungry monster that feeds off of the immature grapevine left over from highschool. to those who spread the love about the dave post -- who jumped to conclusions, yet again, about what i had to say, or took what i said out of context, or were just SO eager to spread more trouble that you were beside yourself with excitment -- i've said it before, and i'll say it again: you need a fucking life. until you find one, stay out of mine.
on that final note, what i say in here is not meant to offend; it's not meant to say i'm better than anyone, or that i'm completely right -- as i've mentioned before, i OPENLY WELCOME criticisim, for discussion. email me, tell me why i'm wrong. dont pass the word arouund and talk behind my back like scared little bitches. what does that prove, or change? who benifits? telling me i'm wrong is okay. perpetuationg the "julie is the devil" myth through your own ignorance and immaturity is not.